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Jaime Gangi 10/22/1979 - 3/7/2023 A few months ago my friend Jaime found out that she has breast cancer. Jaime put up a good fight but the breast cancer was too far along to get under control. Jaime and I talked about Teacher Paramahansa and the possibility of Jaime talking to me when she went to the other side. I am not keen on the medium stuff so once Jaime passed I was not being rude but did not want her to necessarily connect with me. The connection can be very energy draining. Well I didn’t expect this….. |
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- March 8, 2023, 10:07 pm Wednesday
I talked to Jaime! So this is first contact with Jaime. Okay let’s look at the Spiritual Mechanics of this conversation. Jaime already in this first conversation brought back two NEW puzzle pieces for me. I was simply driving to Starbucks to get a cup of coffee and I was not even thinking about Jaime. As I was just about to park the vehicle is when I saw the visual of Jaime and Teacher Paramahansa. Both were smiling and waving at me both using their right hand. Jaime was on the left. I clearly saw this vision with my inner eyes. The wave was a big wave almost going completely side to side. This is why I wrote that “they were looking to get my attention.” Jaime has medium long hair and looks to be around 28 years old. The visual was more from waist and up. I can’t remember if I saw legs and even what the background was. They were suddenly there and my first reaction was that I was psyched for Jaime. One of the NEW puzzle pieces is that Jaime was speaking to me, but she didn’t have an accent. For sure I was speaking to Jaime, but her deep accent wasn’t there. So what does this mean? I was speaking for sure to Jaime avatar (earth) and not Jaime’s Higher Self. When my Uncle Bob passed, he still had his southern accent while |
I spoke to him, and still does. Why does he have his and Jaime does not? Hmmmmm…. Love this stuff!! Jaime has not been picked up by the light yet and processed, or been assisted by a host. She was not instantly delivered to the Summerland Heavens. So where did her accent go? Good time to note: If anybody is connecting with Jaime through meditation etc, seek connection through your love and her heart, over listening for her accent as a tool to get to her heart. Simply offering a more solid way to connect in case the accent is gone for more than just Marty.
Second New puzzle piece is that Jaime states that she is not in a place but is somewhere. She notices that there is no path or sidewalk or road or even a light in the distance (Curiosity) that she can take or even gets her moving. She mentions “No Direction.” However she has choice to remain “still” within a deep spa of Joy, or with a simple thought Jaime can be anywhere visiting anybody or anything on the earth. “Astral bliss while riding the Great Divide.” The second puzzle piece is No Direction. No Direction being given and No Direction to follow and yet…. The mind is humble and calm.
The homeless small dog guy was a lot of fun. It was the end of the day and he looked somewhat mesmerized as I drove up to him offering monies. He very much so was totally psyched and looked surprised to even receive the monies. This guy is a regular on the street corner near my house. At times I feel for his dog who has no choice but hang out on the busy street corner day after day. However the best thing I can do for the two of them is to give them a great Blessing. Plus the $20 from Jaime.
There it is - The first contact words Jaime had with me since her passing was, “There’s that homeless guy with his small dog.” I love it!!!
Second New puzzle piece is that Jaime states that she is not in a place but is somewhere. She notices that there is no path or sidewalk or road or even a light in the distance (Curiosity) that she can take or even gets her moving. She mentions “No Direction.” However she has choice to remain “still” within a deep spa of Joy, or with a simple thought Jaime can be anywhere visiting anybody or anything on the earth. “Astral bliss while riding the Great Divide.” The second puzzle piece is No Direction. No Direction being given and No Direction to follow and yet…. The mind is humble and calm.
The homeless small dog guy was a lot of fun. It was the end of the day and he looked somewhat mesmerized as I drove up to him offering monies. He very much so was totally psyched and looked surprised to even receive the monies. This guy is a regular on the street corner near my house. At times I feel for his dog who has no choice but hang out on the busy street corner day after day. However the best thing I can do for the two of them is to give them a great Blessing. Plus the $20 from Jaime.
There it is - The first contact words Jaime had with me since her passing was, “There’s that homeless guy with his small dog.” I love it!!!
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Stephanie Ruiz painted this rock in memory of Jaime to put at the rock gym.
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- March 16, 2023. 8:15 am Thursday
Stephanie attended Jaime’s funeral and noticed that a few times during the funeral that the church lights flickered. Stephanie also noticed movement within her peripheral eyesight during the funeral. I asked a few other friends if they noticed anything at the funeral and they did not. I feel that most of them were in church shock since they do not regularly attend church and this was a church centered funeral which Jaime had.
I wanted to send my “conversations with Jaime” paperwork to Jaime’s parents but I was having difficulty finding her parents address which Jaime gave to me in the past. I knew I had the address on my phone but it was not showing up. I checked three times and Jaime’s texts did not go far back enough to where the address was, so I am pretty sure I erased it on the first of the year. In the morning I looked at my phone and for some reason Jaime was the first text listed within all of the texts. Amazingly when I looked at the text, her parents address was shown as the first writing. I was blown away.
MK - Wow, Awesome Jaime!!!
Jaime - I got your back!
I invited Jaime to burn out one or more of the light bulbs in my house to see if she could do it. Instead she gets credited for reestablishing a deleted phone text which is awesome. I can’t fully credit Jaime for flickering the church lights since this flicker may be for Stephanie’s eyes only. Super awesome!!! I have felt Jaime while at the gym many times now. I have noticed that when Jaime comes through and says hello, she is very playful. Many people have mentioned that Jaime has been visiting them in their dreams.
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Added Note: 4/23/2023 - 11:20 am Sunday
Yard work in the backyard of my house. While trimming the flowering Oleanders, Jaime presence suddenly shows up to my right. Her presence was so obvious that when I first stepped into it my first reaction was to quickly take a few steps back since she startled me. No problem after that. At that time I was not thinking about Jaime at all. Jaime asks, “Hows it going?” My reply is: “I am trimming the bushes.” Jaime says “Cool!” And that was it. Spiritual Mechanics: It was Jaime without a doubt. Jaime was happy. Jaime appeared to be in her later 20’s in age. Jaime has straight hair. Jaime’s few words were spoken without a accent. Beautiful day, quiet, and no electronic devices within 40’ of me. I am really impressed on how much Jaime can bring forth her presence. Super cool!!
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Added Note 5/16/2023 - 8:30 am Tuesday
Working at the rock gym cleaning the staff room. Presently washing the top of the refrigerator and I could hear Jaime laughing at me. Jaimie asks “Having Fun?” I laughingly reminded her that one of the last things she mentioned when she left the gym was that she no longer had to clean the staff room. MK - “So you leave the gym and then visit me while I am cleaning the staff room?” Jaime - “Strange how that works out.” MK - Well while I have you here let’s clean out your staff locker so somebody else can have it.” Jaime said that nothing in there was of importance but I put the little amount of stuff that was in there in a box and put it with the other items I have of hers. Jaime hung out for a while having fun like 20 minutes or so. At first I noticed that Jaime was talking with a accent, or at least was trying to. So it shows that she knows that I can hear her not having a accent, so at first she was totally faking the accent and I caught onto it. Quite clever actually but I don’t need to hear Jaime to know she is around. Her signature is quite strong. She actually laughed when I questioned her on her bad attempt of her faking a accent.
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Added note 7/16/2023 Facebook post
I’m psyched that I finally found some time to put together a Jaime Gangi display for the climbing museum! Jaime was a well known pillar of the AZ community, who passed in March 2023 from breast cancer. Wow 118 degrees in Phoenix today! Perfect day for a indoor project where my heart can share more tears and laughs with Jaime. Super cool!! My plan is to have the display hung up in the Museum at the Phoenix Rock Gym by Wednesday.
Note to Jaime: “Thanks for hooking me up with a lot of Jaime stuff for me to share in the display!” “See, now you are back to eating chalk dust at the rock gym!” “On Belay! Once a climber, always a climber!”
Many Blessings and Hugs and Love to the Gangi family.
With Love,
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Marty, the Sage
I’m psyched that I finally found some time to put together a Jaime Gangi display for the climbing museum! Jaime was a well known pillar of the AZ community, who passed in March 2023 from breast cancer. Wow 118 degrees in Phoenix today! Perfect day for a indoor project where my heart can share more tears and laughs with Jaime. Super cool!! My plan is to have the display hung up in the Museum at the Phoenix Rock Gym by Wednesday.
Note to Jaime: “Thanks for hooking me up with a lot of Jaime stuff for me to share in the display!” “See, now you are back to eating chalk dust at the rock gym!” “On Belay! Once a climber, always a climber!”
Many Blessings and Hugs and Love to the Gangi family.
With Love,
:)
Marty, the Sage
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- March 22, 2023 9:15 am Wednesday
TPY - Good morning Marty.
MK - Good morning Teacher Paramahansa.
TPY - Explain “Salvation” to me.
Salvation:
(Dictionary) - A source or means of being saved from harm, ruin, or loss.
(Theology) - Deliverance from sin and its consequences, believed by Christians to be brought about by faith in Christ.
Once I pass from this earth life I will love to have my life continue on. I firmly believe in reincarnation, but the next place that this reincarnation takes me to, I cannot answer what or where it is. Comparing myself to the majority of others, I already experienced witnessing my life continuing once I was outside of my body when my heart stopped in 2001. I met with a person in the Spirit World who told me that I was not finished with my earth mission yet and I was sent back into my body, over simply being allowed to walk through the gate of light that I was seeing only footsteps away from me. If this event never happened, my life would have centered on Marty the Climber, over searching deeper into this Marty guy that I am, and exploring and allowing greater values to come forward for me to grow.
When Teacher Paramahansa came to me in December 2022, he mentioned that the only reason he is offering to teach me is because I was glowing within this greater value, “the value” that he enjoys nurturing into others. Now at this time I have been with Teacher Paramahansa for three months and the message he is continually giving to me is that my time that I have left here on earth is very limited and there may not be enough time left for me to get into a greater Salvation alignment. I have been a Spiritual healer now for 20 years, and what Teacher Paramahansa informs me of is that those 20 years was simply training wheels for me to get through the roller coaster of my personal ignorance and to FINALLY truly believe in myself.
TPY - Well said Marty
MK - “The roller coaster of my personal ignorance, wow!”
Two weeks after birth my parents took me to the church and I was Baptized. In the Roman Catholic Church the part my parents did in my baptism was customary, and I bet that it was a incredible moment for my parents. But for me the baptism was not through my personal choice but through the Roman Catholic way. The church states that being baptized a second time is a grave sin. The child does not have a choice so the baptism favors the parents beliefs. But what if it is a situation of the two parents not being of the same faith? Also the Bible mentions that the Holy Spirit baptizes people with fire which is considered a honor even though it is a second baptism. I feel that the true Christ followers are the ones that are baptized by their personal choice. Baptism by water. Some people with all heart want to experience their own baptism. It should be a honor for a person to genuinely come forward and through their own efforts be baptized into Christ, even if it is a second time. But I wonder how the loving Christ really views it? The more time a person puts into being with their Savior brings greater Blessings to that person. Eventually that person becomes greater aligned with the Spirit World and the Holy Ghost baptizes the person with Fire. This is the greatest Baptism that a person can receive. This Baptism by Fire comes from the person “Renewing the Mind” and going through the many changes of becoming the “New Creature.” Overall understand that grace is received as a loving gift from God and cannot be achieved through personal efforts. Note: Jesus, being the Son of God, did not need to be baptized however he chose to be baptized to show the good example.
If a person simply claims that Jesus Christ is their Savior, that person is recognized by Jesus Christ yes, (mainly because Jesus Loves all people), but that act is simply only words spoken. The simple words spoken does not bring salvation. A few years ago a preacher knocked on my house door and we got into a short conversation about salvation. The preacher was not a nice person and looked quite aggravated as a result from his door to door action. Probably most people didn’t even open the door for him. The preacher was only interested in me stating that “Jesus Christ” is savior. He said that If I made this simple statement I will forever be saved by Jesus. I told the preacher that it was not as simple as that. At that point he started walking away from me in disgust. This is a preacher that came to my house and he was delivering to me the message of why I need to have the love of Christ, while he displayed no patience and no forgiveness. But I was not finished with my statement. As he kept walking, I escalated my voice and shouted to him that stating that Jesus Christ is savior must come through a genuine heart. The preacher kept walking without even looking back.
MK - Many Blessings to the aggravated Preacher that visited me at my home front door.
As Jesus was being crucified, two others which were thieves were also being crucified and were placed on opposite sides of Jesus. One thief laughed and mocked Jesus while the other thief, within great compassion, stated that he truly believes that Jesus is the Son of God. Jesus stated to the compassionate thief, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in Paradise.” Looking at the statement that Jesus gave: Paradise is in the heavens of the Astral. The Astral is still part of the Casual Body hence it is still a part of the Physical world. Some may say that Paradise is actually located on earth. Paradise of the Astral is a place to hang out in while being prepared for the next life. Hell is also a place in the Astral where people hang out in while being prepared for the next life or reincarnation. If God is all loving and God created people and wrote the story all people are in, then why would the loving God eliminate his creations when they were somewhat limited to Gods personal story in the first place? The place where the majority of earth souls go at the time of death is Hades. Hades: “The place of departed spirits.” Within Hades is Hell, Sheol, the Great Divide, Paradise, Summerland, etc. This Paradise or Summerland is still in the lower heavens. This Hades is where most people say they saw roads made of Gold, a incredible place of colors and peace etc, but also others saw the lake of fire, and the churning of bodies in flames.
Once all Karma’s are balanced and reincarnation (replay of same life, or a new life with same soul) is no longer required, then the souls reconnect with their Higher Selves and enter the higher dimensional heavens. I call this the “Schools of the Heavens” (Ego Body). Grand Masters still have the choice to reincarnate to assist earth souls in reaching “Greater Values.” In the Bible Jesus went to Hades and while there he increased the place of hell in preparation for the majority of the earth souls to go once passed. This action shows that the greater amount of earth peoples are living their earth life not seeing the need to bring themselves to Greater Values (caught in illusion).
TPY - Living in Ignorance: “If you don’t know about something, you don’t worry about it.”
Living in Delusion: “A false impression of ones own importance.” Man is so drunk with delusion, it obliterates his true perception so that the darkness of his ignorance cannot apprehend the light of God vibrating everywhere. People are centering their worlds on what they experience through their human senses, over developing personal truth. Truth is a living entity. Familiarity with it’s principals through frequent contact makes it a faithful, supportive companion.
When people are first born they are born from darkness into the light. A baby that has become familiar with it’s nine months of darkness is suddenly forced into a form of trauma (birth) which brings the baby into the unfamiliar light. To the baby the light is somewhat rude causing the baby to first squint, then the baby is forced into crying which brings forth the first breath of air. I wonder if the baby is first crying due to the light? In the Bible, John 1:5 states “And the light shineth in darkness, and the darkness comprehended it not.” Darkness is the physical person. God is the light. People partner with darkness since this is what they were first and only presented with. So now people have to change their entire direction after they have figured out a way of being comfortable with the darkness? The soul was free of limitation, and now is confined within a material flesh body.
TPY - The soul, while dwelling in the body, becomes identified with its physical and mental experiences and forgets its divine nature. It masquerades instead as the body-circumsized ego, the Pseudosoul.
MK - The body revisits its comfort in the darkness and gives little attention to even needing to be with the light. As problem after problem surfaces, the person feels like they are accomplishing something by somehow solving the problems (feeling of purpose). However the problems keep coming. And even if there are no problems, the person will actually create problems so they will have a something to solve. Once the problems escalate out of control, then the light becomes attractive and the need for a Savior comes forward.
TPY - To receive Christ is not accomplished through church membership, and not by outer ritual of acknowledging Jesus as ones savior but never knowing him in reality. Receiving Christ is: Expansion of consciousness which deepens the concentration that through the inner light of soul intuition one partakes of the same consciousness that Jesus had.
MK - Anytime that I fell out of balance in my life, a Spirit World visitor came to me and helped me back onto my feet. Over time I found great enjoyment being with this visitor, and it is Jesus. When Teacher Paramahansa stated that his teachings require me to make a life statement identifying the one that will bring me to God, I gave it a lot of thought. Jesus for me is on every path. Jesus without a doubt is my Savior. But I will make a statement here that I do believe that there are other Masters, Teachers, Guru’s, etc, that can bring a person to God. Marty the Sage is not necessarily classified as Jesus’ Disciple. Marty the Sage is Jesus’ Sage. Many people call me a Wise Man. Maybe the three Wise Men that were with Jesus at his birth are inviting me to be with their wisdom.
MK - Can I quote your words or will you like to speak this?
TPY - Go for it.
MK - Statement from Teacher Paramahansa: “The scriptures of India speak of the liberation of the soul in terms of a calibrated formula. Of the total requirement to achieve salvation, it is said that 25% is the disciple’s spiritual effort, 25% is the blessing of the guru, and the remaining 50% is the grace of God.” If I simply shout out that Jesus is my Savior, and do nothing more of it, then I am giving next to nothing of spiritual effort to give my shout out a foundation. So that means without my personal effort to continually be connected with Jesus, my Jesus is Savior shout out has only gained me 1%. And that 1% is Jesus responding to my next to nothing non genuine shout out simply because Jesus loves me. I like the statement that Pastor Tony Evans says: “Part time Christians do not receive full time Blessings.” If I am giving continual praise to my Savior, whom then is sending me continual Blessings, God is multiplying that combined percentage by two where I then receive a boat load of Grace as a unexpected gift. I love you Jesus!!
TPY - Good morning Marty.
MK - Good morning Teacher Paramahansa.
TPY - Explain “Salvation” to me.
Salvation:
(Dictionary) - A source or means of being saved from harm, ruin, or loss.
(Theology) - Deliverance from sin and its consequences, believed by Christians to be brought about by faith in Christ.
Once I pass from this earth life I will love to have my life continue on. I firmly believe in reincarnation, but the next place that this reincarnation takes me to, I cannot answer what or where it is. Comparing myself to the majority of others, I already experienced witnessing my life continuing once I was outside of my body when my heart stopped in 2001. I met with a person in the Spirit World who told me that I was not finished with my earth mission yet and I was sent back into my body, over simply being allowed to walk through the gate of light that I was seeing only footsteps away from me. If this event never happened, my life would have centered on Marty the Climber, over searching deeper into this Marty guy that I am, and exploring and allowing greater values to come forward for me to grow.
When Teacher Paramahansa came to me in December 2022, he mentioned that the only reason he is offering to teach me is because I was glowing within this greater value, “the value” that he enjoys nurturing into others. Now at this time I have been with Teacher Paramahansa for three months and the message he is continually giving to me is that my time that I have left here on earth is very limited and there may not be enough time left for me to get into a greater Salvation alignment. I have been a Spiritual healer now for 20 years, and what Teacher Paramahansa informs me of is that those 20 years was simply training wheels for me to get through the roller coaster of my personal ignorance and to FINALLY truly believe in myself.
TPY - Well said Marty
MK - “The roller coaster of my personal ignorance, wow!”
Two weeks after birth my parents took me to the church and I was Baptized. In the Roman Catholic Church the part my parents did in my baptism was customary, and I bet that it was a incredible moment for my parents. But for me the baptism was not through my personal choice but through the Roman Catholic way. The church states that being baptized a second time is a grave sin. The child does not have a choice so the baptism favors the parents beliefs. But what if it is a situation of the two parents not being of the same faith? Also the Bible mentions that the Holy Spirit baptizes people with fire which is considered a honor even though it is a second baptism. I feel that the true Christ followers are the ones that are baptized by their personal choice. Baptism by water. Some people with all heart want to experience their own baptism. It should be a honor for a person to genuinely come forward and through their own efforts be baptized into Christ, even if it is a second time. But I wonder how the loving Christ really views it? The more time a person puts into being with their Savior brings greater Blessings to that person. Eventually that person becomes greater aligned with the Spirit World and the Holy Ghost baptizes the person with Fire. This is the greatest Baptism that a person can receive. This Baptism by Fire comes from the person “Renewing the Mind” and going through the many changes of becoming the “New Creature.” Overall understand that grace is received as a loving gift from God and cannot be achieved through personal efforts. Note: Jesus, being the Son of God, did not need to be baptized however he chose to be baptized to show the good example.
If a person simply claims that Jesus Christ is their Savior, that person is recognized by Jesus Christ yes, (mainly because Jesus Loves all people), but that act is simply only words spoken. The simple words spoken does not bring salvation. A few years ago a preacher knocked on my house door and we got into a short conversation about salvation. The preacher was not a nice person and looked quite aggravated as a result from his door to door action. Probably most people didn’t even open the door for him. The preacher was only interested in me stating that “Jesus Christ” is savior. He said that If I made this simple statement I will forever be saved by Jesus. I told the preacher that it was not as simple as that. At that point he started walking away from me in disgust. This is a preacher that came to my house and he was delivering to me the message of why I need to have the love of Christ, while he displayed no patience and no forgiveness. But I was not finished with my statement. As he kept walking, I escalated my voice and shouted to him that stating that Jesus Christ is savior must come through a genuine heart. The preacher kept walking without even looking back.
MK - Many Blessings to the aggravated Preacher that visited me at my home front door.
As Jesus was being crucified, two others which were thieves were also being crucified and were placed on opposite sides of Jesus. One thief laughed and mocked Jesus while the other thief, within great compassion, stated that he truly believes that Jesus is the Son of God. Jesus stated to the compassionate thief, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in Paradise.” Looking at the statement that Jesus gave: Paradise is in the heavens of the Astral. The Astral is still part of the Casual Body hence it is still a part of the Physical world. Some may say that Paradise is actually located on earth. Paradise of the Astral is a place to hang out in while being prepared for the next life. Hell is also a place in the Astral where people hang out in while being prepared for the next life or reincarnation. If God is all loving and God created people and wrote the story all people are in, then why would the loving God eliminate his creations when they were somewhat limited to Gods personal story in the first place? The place where the majority of earth souls go at the time of death is Hades. Hades: “The place of departed spirits.” Within Hades is Hell, Sheol, the Great Divide, Paradise, Summerland, etc. This Paradise or Summerland is still in the lower heavens. This Hades is where most people say they saw roads made of Gold, a incredible place of colors and peace etc, but also others saw the lake of fire, and the churning of bodies in flames.
Once all Karma’s are balanced and reincarnation (replay of same life, or a new life with same soul) is no longer required, then the souls reconnect with their Higher Selves and enter the higher dimensional heavens. I call this the “Schools of the Heavens” (Ego Body). Grand Masters still have the choice to reincarnate to assist earth souls in reaching “Greater Values.” In the Bible Jesus went to Hades and while there he increased the place of hell in preparation for the majority of the earth souls to go once passed. This action shows that the greater amount of earth peoples are living their earth life not seeing the need to bring themselves to Greater Values (caught in illusion).
TPY - Living in Ignorance: “If you don’t know about something, you don’t worry about it.”
Living in Delusion: “A false impression of ones own importance.” Man is so drunk with delusion, it obliterates his true perception so that the darkness of his ignorance cannot apprehend the light of God vibrating everywhere. People are centering their worlds on what they experience through their human senses, over developing personal truth. Truth is a living entity. Familiarity with it’s principals through frequent contact makes it a faithful, supportive companion.
When people are first born they are born from darkness into the light. A baby that has become familiar with it’s nine months of darkness is suddenly forced into a form of trauma (birth) which brings the baby into the unfamiliar light. To the baby the light is somewhat rude causing the baby to first squint, then the baby is forced into crying which brings forth the first breath of air. I wonder if the baby is first crying due to the light? In the Bible, John 1:5 states “And the light shineth in darkness, and the darkness comprehended it not.” Darkness is the physical person. God is the light. People partner with darkness since this is what they were first and only presented with. So now people have to change their entire direction after they have figured out a way of being comfortable with the darkness? The soul was free of limitation, and now is confined within a material flesh body.
TPY - The soul, while dwelling in the body, becomes identified with its physical and mental experiences and forgets its divine nature. It masquerades instead as the body-circumsized ego, the Pseudosoul.
MK - The body revisits its comfort in the darkness and gives little attention to even needing to be with the light. As problem after problem surfaces, the person feels like they are accomplishing something by somehow solving the problems (feeling of purpose). However the problems keep coming. And even if there are no problems, the person will actually create problems so they will have a something to solve. Once the problems escalate out of control, then the light becomes attractive and the need for a Savior comes forward.
TPY - To receive Christ is not accomplished through church membership, and not by outer ritual of acknowledging Jesus as ones savior but never knowing him in reality. Receiving Christ is: Expansion of consciousness which deepens the concentration that through the inner light of soul intuition one partakes of the same consciousness that Jesus had.
MK - Anytime that I fell out of balance in my life, a Spirit World visitor came to me and helped me back onto my feet. Over time I found great enjoyment being with this visitor, and it is Jesus. When Teacher Paramahansa stated that his teachings require me to make a life statement identifying the one that will bring me to God, I gave it a lot of thought. Jesus for me is on every path. Jesus without a doubt is my Savior. But I will make a statement here that I do believe that there are other Masters, Teachers, Guru’s, etc, that can bring a person to God. Marty the Sage is not necessarily classified as Jesus’ Disciple. Marty the Sage is Jesus’ Sage. Many people call me a Wise Man. Maybe the three Wise Men that were with Jesus at his birth are inviting me to be with their wisdom.
MK - Can I quote your words or will you like to speak this?
TPY - Go for it.
MK - Statement from Teacher Paramahansa: “The scriptures of India speak of the liberation of the soul in terms of a calibrated formula. Of the total requirement to achieve salvation, it is said that 25% is the disciple’s spiritual effort, 25% is the blessing of the guru, and the remaining 50% is the grace of God.” If I simply shout out that Jesus is my Savior, and do nothing more of it, then I am giving next to nothing of spiritual effort to give my shout out a foundation. So that means without my personal effort to continually be connected with Jesus, my Jesus is Savior shout out has only gained me 1%. And that 1% is Jesus responding to my next to nothing non genuine shout out simply because Jesus loves me. I like the statement that Pastor Tony Evans says: “Part time Christians do not receive full time Blessings.” If I am giving continual praise to my Savior, whom then is sending me continual Blessings, God is multiplying that combined percentage by two where I then receive a boat load of Grace as a unexpected gift. I love you Jesus!!
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-- End of March 2023
At the end of March Teacher Paramahansa showed me a method which brings more peace into the self while sending loving Blessings to anybody that comes into the field of thought energy. It is simple and really fun and only takes a few minutes up to as long as you want. Get into a sitting position cross legged, or even just sitting in a chair. Place both hands palms facing upward on the knees and have the thumb and middle finger touching. This should be quite comfortable. Close your eyes, relax the heartbeat, concentrate on slowing your breathing, and avoid thinking about anything and allow yourself to become calm. I like to face the sun since when I have my eyes closed the inside of my eye lids range from the color of red through orange and into yellows, and the colors can be changed by simply tilting my head in a different position.
At the end of March Teacher Paramahansa showed me a method which brings more peace into the self while sending loving Blessings to anybody that comes into the field of thought energy. It is simple and really fun and only takes a few minutes up to as long as you want. Get into a sitting position cross legged, or even just sitting in a chair. Place both hands palms facing upward on the knees and have the thumb and middle finger touching. This should be quite comfortable. Close your eyes, relax the heartbeat, concentrate on slowing your breathing, and avoid thinking about anything and allow yourself to become calm. I like to face the sun since when I have my eyes closed the inside of my eye lids range from the color of red through orange and into yellows, and the colors can be changed by simply tilting my head in a different position.
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Ok now the super fun part! Keep your eyes closed throughout. Imagine you are holding a pillow shaped balloon. Fill the balloon with the color of your choice while warming it with your love. Now put within that a image or feeling representing somebody that you want to give a Blessing to. This can be a giving of a Blessing, Love, some words, a simple smile, and all of this is to say, “I am thinking of you.” Once you feel the balloon is filled with enough warmth, then open your fingers and thumbs and allow the balloon to beautifully float away. The balloon already knows where it is going so just simply release the balloon, and then rejoin the thumbs and middle fingers again and fill another balloon and another and so on. In ten minutes I usually send 30 or more Blessings. Some are lengthy, and others are a simple hello. Blessings go to my family, friends, my cats, people that don’t necessarily like me, and the best way to do this is to Bless every image or feeling that fills the balloon without you having to fill the balloon. |
Once you feel that you are satisfied in the amount of Blessings that you have sent, then slowly open your eyes and feel everything that is around you. Everything becomes peace and it is very apparent. Over time you will notice that when you come across people that you have sent these balloon Blessings to, the past handshakes somehow have now turned into hugs.
TPY - Within this method the Spirit, Soul, Mind, Ego and Body are all working peacefully together. The Spirit World and Physical are Blessing in unison while the self is the maestro in poetic control. The Inner Child comes out to play and even the Shadow can be seen giving an occasional chuckle though preferring to remain silent in observation.
MK - Beautiful, Really Beautiful!!! Thank you Teacher Paramahansa!!!
TPY - Within this method the Spirit, Soul, Mind, Ego and Body are all working peacefully together. The Spirit World and Physical are Blessing in unison while the self is the maestro in poetic control. The Inner Child comes out to play and even the Shadow can be seen giving an occasional chuckle though preferring to remain silent in observation.
MK - Beautiful, Really Beautiful!!! Thank you Teacher Paramahansa!!!
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- April 10, 2023 - Facebook post I was interested in having a art piece made of Paramahansa Yogananda so I asked Stephanie Ruiz if she was interested in creating it, and a few brush strokes later she hands me this masterpiece!! Yes Steph is that good!!!! I am so psyched to have a one of a kind painting of Paramahansa Yogananda hanging in my house!! Everything about this painting is so awesome!!! Paramahansa is presently untangling my spiritual philosophies, and showing me how to somewhat tame my “need to know” of Spirit World mechanics. Huge THANK YOU Stephanie for your amazing art talents!!!! I have a feeling that Paramahansa’s heart was with Steph the entire time she was with this painting. Paramahansa Yogananda is credited as the one who introduced and brought Yoga to the USA. |
Paramahansa Yogananda, by Stephanie Ruiz
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- April 10, 2023 5:45 pm Monday
MK - What do you think about Stephanie’s Paramahansa Yogananda painting?
TPY - The painting is exquisite!! A lot of love went into the creation of this painting.
MK - I feel that Stephanie was receiving Blessings as she created this painting. What a honor it is being the one chosen to bring forward the image!!! I have a feeling that you were visiting her as she was painting you.
TPY - I will admit that I was with her throughout her every brush stroke of this painting.
MK - “Everybody benefits from the teacher.” So Awesome!!! I mentioned to Steph that I may not win any staring contests with this painting, but it will serve as a battery that brings me a recharge of great inspiration every time I am with it, or even every time it is in my thoughts.
MK - Huge THANK YOU Stephanie!!!
TPY - A Divine gift of Greatness.
MK - What do you think about Stephanie’s Paramahansa Yogananda painting?
TPY - The painting is exquisite!! A lot of love went into the creation of this painting.
MK - I feel that Stephanie was receiving Blessings as she created this painting. What a honor it is being the one chosen to bring forward the image!!! I have a feeling that you were visiting her as she was painting you.
TPY - I will admit that I was with her throughout her every brush stroke of this painting.
MK - “Everybody benefits from the teacher.” So Awesome!!! I mentioned to Steph that I may not win any staring contests with this painting, but it will serve as a battery that brings me a recharge of great inspiration every time I am with it, or even every time it is in my thoughts.
MK - Huge THANK YOU Stephanie!!!
TPY - A Divine gift of Greatness.
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- We started talking about traumas on April 3, 2023
- (writing) April 11, 2023 10:40 am Tuesday
- TRAUMA (Birth)
TPY - Trauma. This will be a exciting review of the emotional events that you may still be holding onto. Maybe some of these events are holding you back from moving forward on your journey. Let’s look into what you hold onto as “traumas” and see if we can lovingly heal anything that brings emotional pain forward.
MK - This you say will be exciting?
TPY - Yes exciting for both of us actually. For me as your teacher as I am excited to be walking with you as we review you. Exciting for you since if all goes great, you will no longer be profiled by your mind. Marty the Sage does not need a past to be this Sage, he is already the Sage. This present transition is simply a lesson on “how to wear and to walk in Sage shoes” that the divine gave to you.
MK - Wow this sounds great!! Trauma…. Hmmmmm…….
Trauma - (dictionary): Emotional shock following a stressful event or a physical injury, which may be associated with physical shock and sometimes leads to long term neurosis. A deeply distressing or disturbing experience.
I am thinking that the best place to start this trauma segment is at my birth. I am sure at some point of my birth there was some form of trauma happening. May it be me being pushed out of my mother, the separation of the warmth and heartbeat of the mothers womb, the sudden gasp for air, the bright light being everywhere, the soul realization being limited within a body, etc. The question of when did I experience my first trauma, surrounds the question of when did the soul first enter the child. The reason I say this is that a persons soul is quite expansive while in Paradise or in other Spirit World places. Suddenly it finds itself experiencing amnesia and being limited to the perimeter of a physical human body. But now since the soul is experiencing amnesia, does it even know that it previously had this expansive ability? So the very first trauma possibly can be the souls realization of sudden confinement. There are many other traumas that babies can experience while in the womb. Example: Frank breach versions, umbilical cord problems, mothers life traits: addiction, hunger, stress, etc.
When I first saw my son in a ultrasound image I was filled instantly with excitement and love. My second son as well gave me the same excitement and love feeling during his ultrasound. Me being the father of two boys, I feel for me that the soul and spirit of the children was already present with the fetus at the time I was seeing them through the ultrasound machine. I don’t know if this means that the spirit and soul first enters a fetus at the time the first cell splits into two. Or sometime during the process of the growing fetus. Or is it right at birth? If my soul is not the first thing of Marty that experienced trauma, then the trauma was in the birthing process with the pushing, the first breath and the light.
TPY - When looking back at Marty’s birth, what comes to mind?
MK - Actually nothing of my personal birth comes to mind. I don’t remember any of it and looking through past stories, there were no complications with my birth.
TPY - Okay let’s spend a little time with this before moving on. This is a perfect time for you to go outside and meditate on your birth for a hour, or for even more time if you need. Let’s see what comes to mind.
(A few hours later)
MK - The only thing with my birth that comes to mind is the happiness that my mom and dad felt while bringing me into the world. I have no feelings against God for bringing me to this earth, and I am happy being in the game!!! I carry no trauma of my birth.
TPY - Excellent. Please give a Blessing to Marty the newborn baby in this story.
MK - Marty you Rock!!! My Man!!! Number One!!! May you be Blessed!!
TPY - I see that ego took the lead on this loving Blessing………
- (writing) April 11, 2023 10:40 am Tuesday
- TRAUMA (Birth)
TPY - Trauma. This will be a exciting review of the emotional events that you may still be holding onto. Maybe some of these events are holding you back from moving forward on your journey. Let’s look into what you hold onto as “traumas” and see if we can lovingly heal anything that brings emotional pain forward.
MK - This you say will be exciting?
TPY - Yes exciting for both of us actually. For me as your teacher as I am excited to be walking with you as we review you. Exciting for you since if all goes great, you will no longer be profiled by your mind. Marty the Sage does not need a past to be this Sage, he is already the Sage. This present transition is simply a lesson on “how to wear and to walk in Sage shoes” that the divine gave to you.
MK - Wow this sounds great!! Trauma…. Hmmmmm…….
Trauma - (dictionary): Emotional shock following a stressful event or a physical injury, which may be associated with physical shock and sometimes leads to long term neurosis. A deeply distressing or disturbing experience.
I am thinking that the best place to start this trauma segment is at my birth. I am sure at some point of my birth there was some form of trauma happening. May it be me being pushed out of my mother, the separation of the warmth and heartbeat of the mothers womb, the sudden gasp for air, the bright light being everywhere, the soul realization being limited within a body, etc. The question of when did I experience my first trauma, surrounds the question of when did the soul first enter the child. The reason I say this is that a persons soul is quite expansive while in Paradise or in other Spirit World places. Suddenly it finds itself experiencing amnesia and being limited to the perimeter of a physical human body. But now since the soul is experiencing amnesia, does it even know that it previously had this expansive ability? So the very first trauma possibly can be the souls realization of sudden confinement. There are many other traumas that babies can experience while in the womb. Example: Frank breach versions, umbilical cord problems, mothers life traits: addiction, hunger, stress, etc.
When I first saw my son in a ultrasound image I was filled instantly with excitement and love. My second son as well gave me the same excitement and love feeling during his ultrasound. Me being the father of two boys, I feel for me that the soul and spirit of the children was already present with the fetus at the time I was seeing them through the ultrasound machine. I don’t know if this means that the spirit and soul first enters a fetus at the time the first cell splits into two. Or sometime during the process of the growing fetus. Or is it right at birth? If my soul is not the first thing of Marty that experienced trauma, then the trauma was in the birthing process with the pushing, the first breath and the light.
TPY - When looking back at Marty’s birth, what comes to mind?
MK - Actually nothing of my personal birth comes to mind. I don’t remember any of it and looking through past stories, there were no complications with my birth.
TPY - Okay let’s spend a little time with this before moving on. This is a perfect time for you to go outside and meditate on your birth for a hour, or for even more time if you need. Let’s see what comes to mind.
(A few hours later)
MK - The only thing with my birth that comes to mind is the happiness that my mom and dad felt while bringing me into the world. I have no feelings against God for bringing me to this earth, and I am happy being in the game!!! I carry no trauma of my birth.
TPY - Excellent. Please give a Blessing to Marty the newborn baby in this story.
MK - Marty you Rock!!! My Man!!! Number One!!! May you be Blessed!!
TPY - I see that ego took the lead on this loving Blessing………
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- April 11, 2023 6:03 pm Tuesday
- TRAUMA - (Destiny - 5 years old)
The strongest memory that I have as a youngster comes at age 5 where I got into a argument with my dad on having to wear the school outfit, as I was being prepared for Catholic School. I go into this story in detail in the Marty’s Spiritual Story. Simple explanation is that I refused to wear the required school outfit. So I pointed at my dad with authority and told him that he doesn’t understand. “I am to be the Jacques Cousteau of the Arizona mountains.” “I am to have two kids one named after Jimi Hendrix and one named after Santa Claus.” Amazingly the three items that I told my dad did come true. This 5 year old situation remained so strong in my life that it still leads my life to this day.
Looking back being the 5 year old Marty I do not see this as a trauma situation. More like a middle child being stubborn and not getting his way. Somehow however I spoke some big future prediction items, that came true. Was this even destiny? Was this a soul screaming “I do not want to feel limited?” This little 5 year old boy may have come up with a escape plan, and the suggestions came through the Bugs Bunny and the Roadrunner cartoons. In the Roadrunner cartoons the setting was in the Arizona desert, showing no people and lots to explore. My favorite holiday is Christmas so maybe that’s where naming my son after Santa Claus came from. But I am not sure where naming my son after Jimi Hendrix came from. Totally Classic!!! I was 5 years old living in Pennsylvania, it was 1969, and Jimi Hendrix was in his prime at that time.
Looking further into this I do see that there was some kind of disturbance going on at the 5 year old time. It may have been just a lot of kid stuff and growing up stuff that I was getting entangled with and running from the situations. I was looking for the easy escape. Even if it was a escape into imagination through art.
TPY - I will say that you have a loving imagination because the items in your imagination came true. Arizona became your home and you raised two loving children. Are you in the place that you need to be in life at this exact moment? The 5 year old Marty will answer, Yes! What does the 58 year old Marty say?
MK - Presently I feel that I am at a crossroads in life. I can do anything and go in any direction. The 5 year old Marty easily answers yes since his destiny picks came forward, but now that they have been accomplished, what then? There is no destiny prediction that follows the birth of my kids. Am I at the place where I need to be at this exact moment? The 58 year old Marty answers Yes! Right now I am walking with Teacher Paramahansa enjoying his wisdom. Within his wisdom paths of curiosity will present themselves.
TPY - So what should we do with this Destiny Trauma?
MK - For now let’s place it in the file named “Growing Up.” I love this Destiny story and maybe it is just that, a great story. I give a HUGE applause to the Spirit World for including this destiny story in my life. To the 5 year old Marty I say “Thank You!!!” You provided me with the confidence I needed to become the one in your vision of who I was to be. Lot’s of love to the 5 year old Marty. Are you feeling that gifted honor my Inner Child? Lot’s of love to the 5 year old Marty, and to this 58 year old Marty as well!!!
TPY - Beautiful.
- TRAUMA - (Destiny - 5 years old)
The strongest memory that I have as a youngster comes at age 5 where I got into a argument with my dad on having to wear the school outfit, as I was being prepared for Catholic School. I go into this story in detail in the Marty’s Spiritual Story. Simple explanation is that I refused to wear the required school outfit. So I pointed at my dad with authority and told him that he doesn’t understand. “I am to be the Jacques Cousteau of the Arizona mountains.” “I am to have two kids one named after Jimi Hendrix and one named after Santa Claus.” Amazingly the three items that I told my dad did come true. This 5 year old situation remained so strong in my life that it still leads my life to this day.
Looking back being the 5 year old Marty I do not see this as a trauma situation. More like a middle child being stubborn and not getting his way. Somehow however I spoke some big future prediction items, that came true. Was this even destiny? Was this a soul screaming “I do not want to feel limited?” This little 5 year old boy may have come up with a escape plan, and the suggestions came through the Bugs Bunny and the Roadrunner cartoons. In the Roadrunner cartoons the setting was in the Arizona desert, showing no people and lots to explore. My favorite holiday is Christmas so maybe that’s where naming my son after Santa Claus came from. But I am not sure where naming my son after Jimi Hendrix came from. Totally Classic!!! I was 5 years old living in Pennsylvania, it was 1969, and Jimi Hendrix was in his prime at that time.
Looking further into this I do see that there was some kind of disturbance going on at the 5 year old time. It may have been just a lot of kid stuff and growing up stuff that I was getting entangled with and running from the situations. I was looking for the easy escape. Even if it was a escape into imagination through art.
TPY - I will say that you have a loving imagination because the items in your imagination came true. Arizona became your home and you raised two loving children. Are you in the place that you need to be in life at this exact moment? The 5 year old Marty will answer, Yes! What does the 58 year old Marty say?
MK - Presently I feel that I am at a crossroads in life. I can do anything and go in any direction. The 5 year old Marty easily answers yes since his destiny picks came forward, but now that they have been accomplished, what then? There is no destiny prediction that follows the birth of my kids. Am I at the place where I need to be at this exact moment? The 58 year old Marty answers Yes! Right now I am walking with Teacher Paramahansa enjoying his wisdom. Within his wisdom paths of curiosity will present themselves.
TPY - So what should we do with this Destiny Trauma?
MK - For now let’s place it in the file named “Growing Up.” I love this Destiny story and maybe it is just that, a great story. I give a HUGE applause to the Spirit World for including this destiny story in my life. To the 5 year old Marty I say “Thank You!!!” You provided me with the confidence I needed to become the one in your vision of who I was to be. Lot’s of love to the 5 year old Marty. Are you feeling that gifted honor my Inner Child? Lot’s of love to the 5 year old Marty, and to this 58 year old Marty as well!!!
TPY - Beautiful.
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— 4/24/2023 7:14 pm. Monday
TRAUMA - (Kid Stuff, 6-19 years old)
I grew up with a older sister and a younger brother, so I am sure that I learned many interesting lessons through being raised in a family. Once I discovered the word “mine,” that’s when all of the selfish emotions came forward, and then there is development of identity etc. Add on the many years of school, coming and going friendships, dating, and simply learning to survive in this big world. I am sure that in the first twenty years of my life it was the surviving kid stuff that chiselled me into who I am today. Sure there were many moments that I didn’t necessarily enjoy as I was growing up, but when I look back now, there are not any items that are being presented that need to be healed. I just can’t think of any. Maybe this is because I already did a lot of healing ground work in the years previous where now I am humbled as I witness that spiritual work really works!!
TPY - Even during the times when things in life are balanced, it presents a great opportunity to further Bless. A great opportunity to connect deeper with the emotions that came forward during stages of your early development.
MK - A great opportunity to give a big hug to my Inner Child. Blessings my Inner Child for sharing your heart with my smile. Blessings to my sister and brother for the many years of family togetherness. Blessings to my mom and dad for their continual patience within teaching a Forward direction. Blessings my Ego for allowing others to play during the many times you only wished for you to be in the spotlight. Blessings my Shadow for keeping things real. Blessings my friends for any hurt that I have left you with in life. Please allow me to trade my great Blessing for the weight of my hurt that you no longer have to carry. I am sorry. Blessings to Jesus for sticking with me during those early growing years. Blessings to God for giving me a very memorable and fun childhood. Blessings Teacher Paramahansa for this kid stuff review.
TPY - I was actually expecting a lot more to be written, however this covers it quite nicely.
MK - I can remember a lot of stuff that I didn’t necessarily like, example: bullying, being on the losing team, etc, but at no time did anything escalate into what I classify as Trauma. Possibly when a pet died it felt like trauma. My first experience with a roller coaster left me terrified in tears. It is interesting that as a kid I was very in tune with what was considered cool, and that which totally sucked. Now when I am in this review of 30 years later, I don’t really remember the bad stuff. Maybe because I am looking back through loving eyes? Maybe what I was classifying as being bad, was just a part of kid stuff aka: Growing Up.
-- 4/25/2023 9:41 pm Tuesday
TPY - Kid Stuff is the experiences that you were with of which your adolescent morals were formed. But how many of the created adolescent morals have you grown into maturity? Before we go forward, for the next 7 days go deep into your memories of your childhood, and see what surfaces.
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- Childhood Trauma memories - “The snow ball.”
I was somewhere between 9 and 12 years old and was outside having a fun snowball fight with my friend Dave. Dave’s house was one street over from my house where I was living in Michigan. We both knew the rules about snowballs where no ice balls were allowed. All was great fun until I got hit in the face with a well packed snowball. Actually hit directly in my eyeball which ended the snowball fun, and I walked away with a quivering lip, but I showed no tears. Wow that really hurt! Dave was a friend, but now Dave was not my friend. Darn snowball, which the Shadow escalates the story into where it was actually a illegal iceball that I got “So” viciously hit with. So I came up with a plan and made a sign that I was going to post on the front lawn outside of his house where the snowball tragedy occurred. I put my words on paper and then glued it to a board and somehow I hooked the board to a stake and the sign was ready to be displayed. I don’t remember what happened, but I didn’t go through with posting the sign. In my bedroom there was a trap door in the ceiling of the closet that went up into the attic. The attic was not finished and was mostly fiberglass insulation. I occasionally crawled up there because it was like a fort or hideaway from everybody in the world. Later it was a great place to sneak a few puffs of a cigarette when I first discovered cigarette smoking. So I know that I ended up bringing the sign into the attic, and threw it as far as I could throw it, and it probably still resides in that place today. Dave and I continued on being friends, without even the need to revisit the viciousness that Dave cast upon me.
TPY - I am sure a grand majority of people can share similar snowball fight memories. (Laughing).
MK - But I took it even further as I was feeling the need to visually express my feelings. Maybe my reasoning went into the choice of losing my friendship with Dave. So I sided with friendship, over carrying anger and the sign was cast away. I am not sure if this is a trauma situation, but it still remains a solid memory. Blessings to Dave for being the friend that hit me with a snowball. It was just a snowball and snowballs hit people, that’s what they are for!
TPY - It is in the snowballs nature!
MK - Classic!!
TRAUMA - (Kid Stuff, 6-19 years old)
I grew up with a older sister and a younger brother, so I am sure that I learned many interesting lessons through being raised in a family. Once I discovered the word “mine,” that’s when all of the selfish emotions came forward, and then there is development of identity etc. Add on the many years of school, coming and going friendships, dating, and simply learning to survive in this big world. I am sure that in the first twenty years of my life it was the surviving kid stuff that chiselled me into who I am today. Sure there were many moments that I didn’t necessarily enjoy as I was growing up, but when I look back now, there are not any items that are being presented that need to be healed. I just can’t think of any. Maybe this is because I already did a lot of healing ground work in the years previous where now I am humbled as I witness that spiritual work really works!!
TPY - Even during the times when things in life are balanced, it presents a great opportunity to further Bless. A great opportunity to connect deeper with the emotions that came forward during stages of your early development.
MK - A great opportunity to give a big hug to my Inner Child. Blessings my Inner Child for sharing your heart with my smile. Blessings to my sister and brother for the many years of family togetherness. Blessings to my mom and dad for their continual patience within teaching a Forward direction. Blessings my Ego for allowing others to play during the many times you only wished for you to be in the spotlight. Blessings my Shadow for keeping things real. Blessings my friends for any hurt that I have left you with in life. Please allow me to trade my great Blessing for the weight of my hurt that you no longer have to carry. I am sorry. Blessings to Jesus for sticking with me during those early growing years. Blessings to God for giving me a very memorable and fun childhood. Blessings Teacher Paramahansa for this kid stuff review.
TPY - I was actually expecting a lot more to be written, however this covers it quite nicely.
MK - I can remember a lot of stuff that I didn’t necessarily like, example: bullying, being on the losing team, etc, but at no time did anything escalate into what I classify as Trauma. Possibly when a pet died it felt like trauma. My first experience with a roller coaster left me terrified in tears. It is interesting that as a kid I was very in tune with what was considered cool, and that which totally sucked. Now when I am in this review of 30 years later, I don’t really remember the bad stuff. Maybe because I am looking back through loving eyes? Maybe what I was classifying as being bad, was just a part of kid stuff aka: Growing Up.
-- 4/25/2023 9:41 pm Tuesday
TPY - Kid Stuff is the experiences that you were with of which your adolescent morals were formed. But how many of the created adolescent morals have you grown into maturity? Before we go forward, for the next 7 days go deep into your memories of your childhood, and see what surfaces.
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- Childhood Trauma memories - “The snow ball.”
I was somewhere between 9 and 12 years old and was outside having a fun snowball fight with my friend Dave. Dave’s house was one street over from my house where I was living in Michigan. We both knew the rules about snowballs where no ice balls were allowed. All was great fun until I got hit in the face with a well packed snowball. Actually hit directly in my eyeball which ended the snowball fun, and I walked away with a quivering lip, but I showed no tears. Wow that really hurt! Dave was a friend, but now Dave was not my friend. Darn snowball, which the Shadow escalates the story into where it was actually a illegal iceball that I got “So” viciously hit with. So I came up with a plan and made a sign that I was going to post on the front lawn outside of his house where the snowball tragedy occurred. I put my words on paper and then glued it to a board and somehow I hooked the board to a stake and the sign was ready to be displayed. I don’t remember what happened, but I didn’t go through with posting the sign. In my bedroom there was a trap door in the ceiling of the closet that went up into the attic. The attic was not finished and was mostly fiberglass insulation. I occasionally crawled up there because it was like a fort or hideaway from everybody in the world. Later it was a great place to sneak a few puffs of a cigarette when I first discovered cigarette smoking. So I know that I ended up bringing the sign into the attic, and threw it as far as I could throw it, and it probably still resides in that place today. Dave and I continued on being friends, without even the need to revisit the viciousness that Dave cast upon me.
TPY - I am sure a grand majority of people can share similar snowball fight memories. (Laughing).
MK - But I took it even further as I was feeling the need to visually express my feelings. Maybe my reasoning went into the choice of losing my friendship with Dave. So I sided with friendship, over carrying anger and the sign was cast away. I am not sure if this is a trauma situation, but it still remains a solid memory. Blessings to Dave for being the friend that hit me with a snowball. It was just a snowball and snowballs hit people, that’s what they are for!
TPY - It is in the snowballs nature!
MK - Classic!!